In high school a good friend of mine sent me a list of music she was currently spinning in her spare time. One of the recommendations was a band by the name of Xiu Xiu. I turned on the track “Sad Pony Guerrilla Girl” and I was completely blown away…

CW: parental death, childhood sexual assault, emotional abuse The biggest problem I have had since I was born is being a liar. You might think that this means lying about things like who ate the last cookie, or some diabolical form of lying like a false abuse accusation. But no…

A good friend of mine describes being an k-pop idol as “the life of a dog.” I can only think about this when it comes to idols getting trapped in images related to their group that the label has come up with for profit sake. …

Second generation k-pop fans, a title referring to k-pop fans who got into k-pop between 2009 and 2013 (argue about it in the comments if you want) have been recently treated to a resurgence of many groups who debuted and gained popularity during that golden era. …

I have watched too much socialist and communist tiktok at this point. I know because I can’t do any job in the future now that might mean potentially exploiting people. This is all I’m thinking about these days after meeting with a pair of financial advisors that my sister found…

Today is the kind of day where I find it extremely hard to want to work. The anxiety around work, money, productivity, scrutiny, and all of that, is on fire. …

CW/TW — parental death, mental illness, suicide, childhood sexual assault, emotional abuse My dad is dying. That’s all I can think when I see the skinny legs that he’s covered with layers of sweatpants and jeans, hanging limply in front of him as he sits on the ground of our…

Today I woke up and the entire house smelled like shit. It was about 2AM or 4AM, I forget, as these days I am back to my habit of sleeping in two hour intervals and waking up with the concern that my father has died in his sleep. Not this…

Doctors are considered some of the smartest people in the world because of the amount of information they have to store at any given time in their brain. They have to store that information and be able to quickly recall it. …